Growing up I believed I was worthy of love only when I performed well. During my Little League years I can remember feeling like a failure for being called out at home and being thrown out of the district championship game at the same time. I had failed to succeed by the world's standards and I was crushed.
Never Play Again?
When my doctor told me I had a rare cartilage disease in both knees I felt my life was over. If I could not play and succeed on the field I would be nothing. I began to look at my life with a changed perspective and I did not like the selfishness and superficiality that I saw. I used drugs and relationships to numb the pain.
Running from God
Though I knew about God, I did not know Him personally. Though I went to church with my parents, I had never given Him control of my life. A fear of having to sacrifice fun in order to get close to Him kept me from completely giving my heart to Him.
A New Life
One night my parents, divorced and then remarried as a result of Jesus' power in their lives, shared the message of God's love with me. I had seen their bitterness transformed into love and obedience so I listened as they explained God loved me and had a plan for me, but I could not experience it because I was separated from Him. Jesus' death provided me (and everyone!) with the bridge to God if I would receive Him into my life. In my misery I decided to give God a chance.
My desires changed. I began to want to be involved in others' lives. I did not want to use drugs. I wanted to be in fellowship with God's people. Church had become a meaningful time of worship.
Now I listen to who God says I am and do not let my performance determine my worth. God tells us "we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do." (Ephesians 2:10) and He "demonstrates His own love for us in this: while we were still sinners, Christ died for us." (Romans 5:8)
I would like to share with you one of my favorite Bible verses and I pray that you will invite Jesus Christ into your life. "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity, but a spirit of power and love and self-control." (II Timothy 1:7)
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